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Name: amanda
Country: United States
State: Massachusetts
Metro: Boston
Birthday: 11/8/1982
Gender: Female
Interests: photography, driving, movies, reading, friends, summer, time-wasting, the beach, among other things.
Expertise: expertise?
Occupation: Other
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Member Since:
3/21/2001
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| i only have 11 and a half days left of this job and i am thrilled. i am so ready to be done with watching these children. it can be fun, at times. it really can. but they can also be particularly horrendous. and its difficult to deal with horrendous kids who are not your own, because you dont have that unconditional love thing going on. you mostly just want to smack them, but you cant, cause that would get you fired, and you need this job. my mom says that it will be easier with my own kids. im just glad i'll be getting a break from childcare before i delve into the whole motherhood thing. they also have a crazy insane, meddling grandmother that lives around the corner and hates me, so thats always interesting. why do grandmothers dislike me so much? my mom says its cause i dont know how to play the game. oh, i know. i just dont feel that i should have to play the game and pander to their ridiculousness just because theyre miserable old women. this morning i woke up suddenly with excruciating leg cramps. it was crazy painful. my apologies to my poor husband, who woke up to me screaming "my leg! my leg!" clutching at my left calf, rocking back and forth, practically in tears. it subsided, then a minute later cramped up again. my calf is still sore, and it hurt to drive my car over here, on account of my car is a manual and i need my left leg to operate the clutch. i hope it doenst happen again tonight. my mom says to eat potassium-rich foods. the only food i know off the top of my head that has potassium is bananas, which i am allergic to. i guess i'll have to do some sort of research. this weekend i am driving up to new jersey for a surprise party for my aunt. it should be a blast. nate cant come with me because of work, but i;ll have fun going up myself. my dad and all my siblings are going to drive down for it. im excited to hang out with everybody. i wish we lived closer. theyre gonna be bringing my old cradle down with them, so i can put it into the room that will be the babys room in october. the plan was for me to pick it up when i go to massachusetts in august for my baby shower, but the plan changed. my mom says shes concerned that by then i wont feel like driving all that way by myself and might change my mind about coming to visit in august. i say bring it on. its just a pregnancy. why should it affect my love of road trips? i;ll have to stop and pee like every 2 exits, but thats no big deal. | | |
| xanga, xanga, xanga.
youre all different. i havent been around here since march. and now youre all blue and white and wanna-be-facebook-y. im confused and lost when i come here now. i miss the old you.
the you before you even offered premium. the you with sites i read instead of subscriptions. the you that bianca invited me to.
things just cant stay the same forever, i suppose.
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| got out of work early today.
for some unknown reason i decided to stop at the mall. (actually, i do sort of know why. i was toying with the idea of getting a new outfit for easter, plus i wanted to see if i could find any cute sweaters on clearance...so theres that.)
anyways, after hitting a few of my favorite stores and finding only a couple things even worth trying on, i came to the realization that i'm getting too fat for my clothes and look pretty much like crap in everything i tried on.
so i went home, and went out for a run. 4.6 miles. part in the neighborhood, part in the woods, part on a couple of little back roads near the woods. it was actually quite peaceful. i ended up taking my headphones off and running sans music. quite enjoyable, really.
by the time i got home, nate was home from work. after a quick shower, we were gonna go out to dinner and a movie. but when i went to get dressed, i came to the realization that i muffin-topped out over all of my pants, and promptly had a minor breakdown over that fact. i think i tried on 4 pairs. the 5th pair was my flannel pajama pants, and after i had those on, i sulked out to the living room and announced i wasnt going out tonight. THEN i had the breakdown with the crying. but nate made me feel better.
then he made a delicious, healthy fish dinner for us and we sat on the couch and watched hot fuzz, which is a bloody brilliant piece of film-making.
so to recap- im feeling crap because i am getting fat and its whats supposed to happen? but i am still fed up. i thought you were supposed to get a cute little bump on your belly at like 4 months and then get fatter after that. not get some all-around pudge at 9.5 weeks and get depressed about the fact that you likely wont be in shape for at least the next YEAR.
but, ive promised nate that i;ll try and accept it. do what i can to eat healthy and right and keep up with exercising so i stay healthy, but not to worry about how i look just now.
still, i almost wish id get just a little fatter so i can just wear maternity clothes and be done with it. wear those cute empire waist tops that i normally avoid like the plague since they make even skinny girls look preg. and stretchy pants. but damn, i seriously thought i had a couple more months before id have to deal with that.
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| went running on a trail in the woods near my house.
it was gorgeous. i hope tomorrow is overcast and rainy like this, i want to go back and take a picture of this trail, it was really peaceful and beautiful. i also want to explore more of the trail. when you first go in, there are three directions you can take.
first i went to the left. but about a quarter mile in i had to stop cause i hit the edge of the park's property. so then i turned around and went past the entrance (so now im on the right fork) and ran along there for awhile, until i hit a stream that didnt look easily crossable, with the water being as high as it is from all the rain today. then i went back and left, cause it was starting to get dark. so tomorrow i can take the section of trail that goes straight out from the entrance, see how far i can get on that.
it was a really nice run. i did 3.5 miles total, and damn i run slow these days. took me 45 minutes.
but.
i feel absolutely amazing. what a perfect day to run.
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| i havent been taking pictures lately. not professionally, not of my life, nothing. thats kind of sad. i should take pictures.
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